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Ten years ago, I read a book that re-oriented the way I think about food. Barbara Kingsolver’s, Animal, Vegetable, Miracle, lured me toward a life of more seasonal-eating, and created a longing within me for a world in which we know the earth better and live into local creation more fully. I wanted to walk out my back door, pluck something from the vine, and eat it.

We were living in India then, going back and forth to Michigan for months at a time. India provides a lush, tropical buffet studded with guavas, pomegranates, and the peculiar but awe-inspiring jackfruit. In India we eat vegetables called drumsticks. Curry leaves flavor the food. And, all of it is found locally and in-season. Among these delights, it is only the regal pomegranate that I can find, “locally” in the US, and then, only in the late fall, from California. None of it is local to me in Michigan or my backyard.

Barbara Kingsolver does not have nice things to say about bananas. I see her point, really. The banana is an industrialized, over-produced fruit. In developing “the” banana — one, singular variety — into a commodity, bananas as we know them now risk extinction. What?!?

Upon return to Michigan, ripped from the clutches of the banana hot zone of India, I stopped buying bananas. I felt so strongly about the moratorium, that I would avert my eyes as I rolled my cart through the grocery store’s produce section.

A couple of years passed, and I purchased little to no bananas unless we were in India where we gorged on dozens of banana varieties in every color, shape, and size. However, as our travel to India became more infrequent, my dear, Indian husband began to long for bananas. My children, too, as though it is some kind of freak genetic disposition to crave bananas. Their incessant requests for bananas seemed dramatic to me, but, like everywhere, we live in a place where bananas are available everyday, at affordable prices.

I started to buy bananas again.

My little family of monkeys was very, very happy.

As it happens, having bananas in the house also, inevitably, leads to bananas here and there over-ripening on the counter, scorned by the very banana-eaters who requested them. This is where I’m happy to admit that I become the one who loves bananas. Old bananas = Banana Bread. In many ways, Banana Bread brought on the truce for me. It eased a good deal of my anxiety over the world’s banana crisis as the baking process, and the food itself, were a ministration to me, and to those around me.

Old, spotty, brown bananas are peeled and mashed, folded into flour, eggs, and butter. I chop walnuts and add them last. How many times — dozens upon dozens, many more than one hundred — have I poured the batter into the loaf pan? The ritual has become my Banana Bread Prayer.

When I got married, my mom packed up a little wooden recipe box, brimming-full with favorite family recipes, and gave it to me at my bridal shower. It was a generous labor of love, and it has been feeding us ever since.

Praying the Banana Bread Prayer generally points first to the saints, to those before me who labored over loaves and filled their families’ tummies. Our own Banana Bread recipe came from a woman named, Flossie, an old farmer’s wife in my dad’s first congregation in upstate New York. Flossie told funny stories and kept her Christmas tree up until Easter. I’ve heard often about the gigantic, heart-attack-waiting-to-happen breakfasts she prepared for her husband, Bill, each and every morning. And, I vividly recall lying on the thin parlor rug in their home and learning to play Othello with my brother the night before we moved to Florida. The methodical process of prepping and mixing the ingredients always brings Flossie to mind. The humble, brown banana connects us still.

And, it is not just Flossie. My heart and my prayers run across generations of believers and loved-ones like her. Often, I think of a particular college student that I knew when I was a chaplain. Like many a hungry boy, he really hankered after homemade banana bread and made sure I knew that. Now he uses his creative gifts to grow and change the kingdom through film.

I also recall introducing my Indian family to the joy of banana bread as ovens first became available there. In a place where I never worried about the aforementioned ethical complications of consuming bananas, it was remarkable to see people enjoy the newfangled banana bread treat. And, as the banana has become ubiquitous throughout all of the United States and beyond, the myriad smiles and conversations I’ve had over banana bread run in and around my mashing, stirring, and pouring process and prayers.

The longer the bananas stall and sit, and the darker their color turns, the sweeter they become. The fruit that slips from a blackened peel is best for the bread that will be baked. I think a lot about the weary, ugly, old fruit that gets turned into something so good, and lovely, and new.

How much of our praying is just like this, arising out of the neglected and rejected parts of our lives, those all together weary and worn? With nothing else left to do we then bring them to God, offer them, add them, until they become something new. For me, praying like an old banana is the most hopeful, sweet thing I can do.

Header photo by Alistair Smailes on Unsplash

Banana photo by Alistair Smailes on Unsplash

Katy Sundararajan

Katy enjoys writing here at the Reformed Journal about the small things that give us pause and point us to great wonder, the things that make our hearts glad and remind us of where our hope comes from. You can find more of Katy’s writing through Words of Hope free daily devotionals, and in Guideposts’ All God’s Creatures: Daily Devotions for Animal Lovers. Give Katy a good book, a pretty view, or a meal around the table with laughing people and she’ll say, “All is well.”


  • Daniel Meeter says:

    I love this.

  • Bruce Buursma says:

    I found this deliciously appealing. Thanks, Katy!

  • Norma L Hook says:

    Katy, you are so talented and creative. How about adding Michigan blueberries and or some orange juice to your banana bread. Really good. Thanks for sharing your delightful writing and parts of your life with us.

  • Ann McGlothlin Weller says:

    Ah, what a charming, and thought-provoking, piece to read this morning before I’ve even had coffee. Thank you.

  • Jeff Carpenter says:

    Those over-ripe bananas beyond hope and destined for banana bread can find a holding-place in the freezer.

  • Martha Wing says:

    Katy your words capture my heart as you capture the everyday parts of life and turn them into nuggets to remind us of God in our lives. Of course, being your Mom you already captured my heart long ago. I just love to see the things you perceive and how your words wind together to remind us of how we are formed and loved by God.

  • Linda K Glendening says:

    What a beautiful read. I have found it amazing connecting prayer to a specific happening. I have a bell given to me by a niece. I have attached that bell to my back door. Every time I open and close that door the bell rings and I say a prayer/blessing for my niece’s 2 year old little girl who I see maybe only once a year. But I connect with her every day through a ringing bell.

  • Ann Conklin says:

    Thank you for this wonderful essay! I too read Kingsolver’s book (the one you mentioned, among many others) and developed a distaste for bananas. My first child was on latex precautions from birth and, since bananas are in the same family tree, those were included. No problem there. However, then I had another little monkey and baking banana bread together became our ritual. At 2 and 3 years old, standing on a stool in the kitchen while his older sister was at school, he’d help me mix and pour and, of course, taste test! This continued through elementary, middle, and even high school – just the two of us in the kitchen together. The division of labor became more equal and sometimes I’d barely assist. Page 81 in “Ann Arbor’s Cooking” has many a splatter on it and also contains a whole lot of love and wonderful memories for us. He’s about to graduate from U of M and begin life on his own. I’m happy to report that we still baked banana bread during college visits home and he’s become a fabulous cook of many international dishes!
    Thanks again for the beautiful reminder of the sustaining value of faith, family, and food…all wrapped up in prayer.

  • Emily Jane VandenBos Style says:

    Banana bread communion! So much to savor in this piece of memoir theology. Hope Diana Butler Bass is among the readers. Imagine if half the voices speaking of matters sacred & mundane were women’s. Imagine the banana bread of truth we make with our own hands for the communal feast of being humankind. Thank you for baking & sharing nourishment this Saturday morning!

  • Fred Mueller says:

    Bananas? Really? You never know what you will get when you open this “box of chocolates” called “The Twelve.” For it I am grateful, Katy. Some years ago I had the opportunity to work with the great homiletician, David Buttrick. Over a glass of wine he said, “You RCA folks have great little journal, ‘Perspectives.'” He told me you had accepted a poem from him for publication which was attributed to “anonymous.” I have been wanting to relate that story for what? Geez. Well over twenty years.

  • Jack Ridl says:

    Thank you. Your sacred lyricism leaves the page and settles into heart and home.

    You also invited me to head home after school and savor two slices of my mother’s banana bread that she’d made to help me through solid geometry.

  • Betsy Gibbs says:

    When passing a piece becomes the passing of peace, and accompanying tea, a cup of love. The sweetness shared between friends.

  • James C Dekker says:

    I almost always have loved, yes craved, bananas in just about any form, including overripe ones magically mashed, poured and baked into savoury loaves larded w/ walnuts in my mom’s banana bread. The walnuts never make it into the bb anymore b/c of one daughter’s allergy. (Even though she and fambly live far away, walnuts still haven’t ambled their way into the batter.) Then we moved to Central and South America for the better part of a decade. I’d thought there was ONE banana; no, Kingsolver hadn’t guilted me yet. In the tropics, away from Dole’s and Chiquita’s monoculture, REAL bananas were found in all the markets. Big, little, almost maroon, long and skinny, short and stout. And talk about FLAVOUR. and FLAVOURS. I never liked living in the tropics with all the heat and many ways to succumb to amoebas, etc., but whenever I do head south-ish for part-time Member Care work, I find bananas, real bananas and would love to smuggle through Canadian Customs, but have eschewed such shenanigans. Like who wants to jeopardize one’s precious Nexus standing for a few days of nutritional blessing and pleasure? Now, Ms. Katy, thanks a lot for making my mouth water and yearning to head to the tropics for the first time in two Covid-filled years.

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